Hello. I am a wife and mother of an amazing daughter. My husband is pretty great too. I have struggled with my weight since my late teens. I have gained and lost and gained again. At one time I lost over 90 pounds and had kept it off for two years. I am now at my heaviest and I have over 150 pounds to lose. For most of my adult life I have maintained a weight between 225 and 250 pounds. If that isn't bad enough, in the last 18 months I have gained 50 pounds.
I struggle with panic disorder and depression and I hit rock bottom last March. Since then I have made some drastic changes in my life. My family and I moved across country from Florida to Washington for a job I found on Craigslist. Which was insane since I was unable to and had not worked for a year before that because of the panic attacks. But making a home in the Northwest was a dream and goal of mine and my husbands. I knew I had to pick myself up and make a better life for all of us but mostly for my daughter. I have, for the most part, conquered the anxiety; it rears it's ugly head sometimes but it will not ever control my life again. The depression tries to sneak up on me too but I am also winning that battle.
I am so uncomfortable in this body that it is time to take action and win this war as well. I have tried many diets in the past and failed. Why do I think this time is different? First of all I don't have an option to fail. I have a six year old daughter watching me and learning from me and I do not want her to go through the same struggles as I have with weight. And I want to have the energy to do all the things she wants me to do with her. My husband is naturally an outdoors man and now that we are in the Pacific Northwest there is so much we want to see and discover and at 300 pounds all I can do is watch from the sidelines. My father had his first heart attack at 36 years old. I just celebrated my 35th birthday in March.
So if the things that I share interest you or provide insight or inspiration, share my story, share your story and we can do this together.
